Lucy Letby Update- Thirwall and Reasonable Doubt

 The Notes and Reasonable Doubt

UPDATE: 17/07/25

Thirwall Inquiry has been contacted to request verification as to whether or not the 'CRIME' model 2020 of profiling was used or not and to suggest correlations with Prof.Andy Bilsons recent publications 2025 of FII- for info on the model see

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https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9103349/

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The notes and further reasons why there is reasonable doubt

Lucy Letby’s Notes: Who Told Her to Write Them, What They Really Meant, and Why the Public Got It Wrong

Lucy Letby wrote a series of disturbing and emotional notes during the police investigation into infant deaths at the Countess of Chester Hospital. 

These notes have been repeatedly quoted in the media—especially the phrase “I am evil I did this”—but the full story behind them is often left out.

Who told her to write the notes?

Two professionals advised her to journal:

• Kathryn de Beger, the hospital’s occupational health and wellbeing lead

• Her GP

Both suggested writing as a therapeutic tool to help her manage the extreme emotional stress she was experiencing at the time.

Why were the notes written?

Letby was removed from her duties, placed under suspicion, isolated from her colleagues, and reportedly suicidal. 

The notes were written during this breakdown period and were never intended to be seen by others.

 She later explained that she was trying to cope with confusion, despair, and overwhelming guilt—even though she insisted she had done nothing wrong.

What did the notes say?

They were highly emotional and deeply contradictory, including:

• “I am evil I did this”

• “I killed them on purpose because I’m not good enough”

• “I don’t deserve to live”

• “I haven’t done anything wrong”

• “Why is this happening?”

• “I am innocent”

• “I only ever wanted to help and care for them

These contradictions reflect emotional collapse, not clear criminal intent. Intent and motivation are vital to consider.

What do experts say?

Criminologist Professor David Wilson and psychologist Richard Curen both stated that emotionally distressed notes written as part of a coping strategy are not reliable indicators of guilt.

 In fact, such notes are often filled with irrational, self-blaming, and contradictory thoughts that are common during breakdowns or depression.

So is she guilty?

There is reasonable doubt. Based on what is publicly known, the case against Lucy Letby leaves many serious questions unanswered.

Why there is reasonable doubt:

• No forensic evidence was presented—no toxic substances, fingerprints, or physical acts proven.

• The medical evidence is contested—some of the infants had pre-existing health conditions or were already in critical states.

• Statistical patterns were used instead of hard evidence—Letby being “present” was treated as suspicious, but many other staff were also present at collapses.

• Contradictory notes were treated as confessions—even though they were written under therapeutic advice and contain clear signs of emotional confusion.

• Alternative causes—including hospital staffing, equipment issues, or natural deterioration—were not fully investigated or were dismissed.

• Other hospital failures were downplayed, including prior whistleblowing and management pressure.

• The expert witnesses for the prosecution have been criticised, particularly Dr. Dewi Evans, for offering speculative or unsupported interpretations.

• There is no clear motive—Letby had no history of violence, cruelty, or gain. The psychological profile is inconsistent with typical serial offenders.

• Media coverage created bias—dramatic headlines quoting “I am evil” ignored context and influenced public perception.

• The legal system relied heavily on inference—not direct evidence. The case was largely circumstantial. (See FII profiling and Prof.Andy Bilson)

Conclusion:

Letby’s notes were written during a time of severe emotional crisis, on advice from her GP and hospital wellbeing lead. The notes were private, conflicted, and show both guilt and innocence. Experts say they are not valid evidence of wrongdoing.

There is no forensic link, no proven act, and no consistent motive. The case relied heavily on interpretation, emotion, and institutional pressure—leaving ample room for reasonable doubt. 

Letby may have been in the wrong place during a tragic cluster of events, but that does not equal proof of murder.

Sources:

• The Guardian (3 Sept 2024) – “Letby’s ‘I am evil’ note written on advice of counsellors”

• LBC News – Trial and testimony coverage

• inkl.com – Letby’s own explanations and courtroom reporting

• Wikipedia – Lucy Letby case summary

• Expert views – Prof. David Wilson, Richard Curen, and others critical of the medical evidence

PS this was rejected on the main Lucy Letby discussion on Reddit and on Facebook

From an 'old newspaperman' on Reddit - more on the notes

"kill myself right now"

Disturbing and gives you an insight into how unwell this had made her feel. Taking this into account and how frantic the notes appear, I can only assume she was writing overwhelming thoughts/fears down, in moments like that anything can enter your mind – doesn't mean it's true though.

"Not good enough"

Was at the very top of the notes and underlined. She also finished the 'confession' line with "...because I'm not good enough to care for them". Which I find interesting, because before she was accused she had texted a doctor/friend after the death of a baby and she questioned if she was "good enough" as a nurse. Now a serial killer would be very unlikely to draw attention to them being at fault in any way, but here she is openly starting to question if she could be at fault in some way.

But if innocent, a nurse who was already thinking like this, gets accused, I can see it causing immense harm to her confidence to the point she blames herself for not being good enough to care for them – which I find incompatible with murder. There's no specific details of how any babies died, so it would be such an unusual reason other than her seeing herself as incompetent, which she was already questioning due to the high death rate.

"Obviously no evidence"

Was written and is interesting – if it was written in a "I've cleaned up all the evidence" sort of thought, then she's not going to write the police's 'confession' notes is she? IMO, can only be from an innocent POV – "obviously no evidence – I haven't done anything wrong".

"I don't know if I killed them, maybe I did, maybe this is down to me"

Well if she's a murderer – she's got a very bad memory! Murder is premeditated and I don't know of any murderers that don't know if they killed anyone!

"we tried our best & it wasn't enough"

Can't think of any other reason for this one, but her feeling she tried her best with her colleagues to save the babies, but feels it wasn't enough, so obviously feels bad – after being accused, could this be why she feels she's "evil", "I did this"? Being accused but not knowing how they died. If innocent, I can see a young woman questioning how it could be her fault – "I was blaming myself, not because I'd done something wrong, because of the way people were making me feel".

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